Lost, or maybe I found my way back.........

It seems like ages since I've signed into blogger, or even looked at other's blogs, for that matter. Earlier, I used to be so passionate about blogging, about chronicling every single event of my life, in college or otherwise, but now it seems that I've taken a much needed break. To help matters, I didn't have any access to internet for the past few months, except for those rushed minutes in cafe, which were definitely not enough.

Okay, enough rambling. Coming back to present, I'm enjoying my holidays at home. Actually I should be slogging for CAT and others, but that's too much to ask for. And I think I've written too much for a comeback post, other gossip later.

Tagged again!

Here goes...
1. What does my user name mean?
That's my name, and it metaphorically means a mother's lap, the sari's pallu if you are talking literally.

2. Elaborate on your user photo..
It's a sketch made by my friend Radhika, and the moment I saw it, I fell in love with it. It was put up in my hostel room's wall last year, but then one fine day it wasn't there, and all I have now is this pic.

3. How many comments do you have?
You can check that for yourself........

4. Whats your current relationship status?
Committed and happy. Wait! Do both of them go together??

5. What exactly are you wearing right now?
What I usually wear at home, shorts and T-shirt. The most comfortable garment ever made.

6. Who do you love the most?
My parents

7. What makes you most happy?
When all my things are in order......

8. Are you musically defined?
Very much, music is my life....

9. What would you do if you woke up one morning and discovered you were on cocaine?
I would straight away check myself into a rehab, don't like addictions or habits.

10.If you could go back in time and change some thing what would it be?
There are some actions that I deeply regret, but they seemed right at that time. And I believe that everything I do has some lesson or the other to teach me, so it must be for the good.

11. If you must be an animal for a day, what would you be?
A rabbit, though I'm not a vegetarian, so I'm not sure I will survive.

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Once, when I was about to step inside the Calcutta Metro, the doors slammed suddenly. My grandmother had pulled me back just in time, otherwise I would have been smashed between those two doors. But yes, I did have the guts to travel in the same train and got in through the emergency door.

13. Name an obvious quality you have?
My frankness...

14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
Its this song called "Tennu leke" from some godknowswhich film. I hate this song, but it means a lot to someone...

15. Are you happy today?
Very much. I'm relaxing at home. I have all that I ever wanted. Today, I just dropped my sis to her classes and drove back without hitting anyone, and I shall go shopping in the evening, so yes, I'm very happy.

16. Who will cut and paste this first?
I don't know.

17. Name someone with the same birthday as yours
My school friend, Shefali Marwah.

18. Do you have a secret crush on someone?
They come and go.

19. Do you have a garbage disposal in your kitchen sink?
Yes...

20. Have you ever been in a fight?
Plenty of times, just last evening I fought with a photographer who was showing too much attitude...

21. Have you ever sung infront of a large audience?
I have, but I a group. Haven't yet received my chance to go solo.

22. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their smile

23. Say something totally random about yourself?
I'm very sentimental. There are a few people in front of whom I cry for even the smallest things...

24. Has anyone said you looked like a celebrity?
I don't think that would really please me, but yes, quite a few people who love me a lot and would say anything that would supposedly make me happy.

25. Are you comfortable with your height?
Yes I am, would have loved to be a bit taller, but on seeing all these shortys around me, I feel content... :)

26. What is the most romantic thing somebody's done for you?
Stayed in the hostel for almost a month in this sweltering heat just so that I don't feel lonely... :)

27. What are your favourite smells?
At the moment it is this particular deo-mixed-with-smoke smell that I totally adore..

28. What's something that totally annoys you?
When I lose something...

29. What's something you really like?
Books, and my ipod.

30. Do you give random hugs and kisses?
Not really.

31. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
All night.

32. have you ever been rushed into the emergency room?
Yes, when I got burnt by scalding hot tea that I was trying to make...

33. Whom would you tag?
My sis anki, her friends, Prerna and Aanchal.

This Is Me - Sober

I don't wanna be the girl who is the sweetest,
Or the girl who is loved by one and all.
I don't wanna roam around with a bunch of 25 friends,
But this doesn't mean I like to be alone.

I'm not bad, but then I'm not overtly generous,
Shockingly there's a good side to me as well.
But its not for everyone who gets a chance to meet me,
It's not something you can just see and tell.

Of course, I'm sensitive,
And I tend to get hurt as hell.
I am at times sarcastic,
Maybe that's why you won't like me so well.

But I'm here.
Up high.
Nothing can touch me,
'Coz I know that my friends are here.
No pain.
Inside.
Life is perfection,
'Coz they make me see everything so clear.

Oh...Well...

Lets talk, shall we? Or maybe, only I speak and you listen, I guess that should work out well. I seem to be comfortable with that too. Just one last piece of advice:don't follow whatever I say like the bible. Simply because its not. And now that I know you do, I might just lead you anywhere. At this rate I feel that I should sign off as

xoxo
Gossip Girl












I don't think that is such an good idea though.












P.S. @ Butterfly: Thank you for whatever you did that day for me, it means a lot. Though I guess we should find a better way to commute next time!

Its The Time To Party!!!

Nayan Tarse......Nayan Tarse

Daras Na Mile......Nayan Tarse

Well, Valentine's Day has never had any special significance for me till now, it just ends up being another holiday for me. In my first year, I remember, all of us were single and together we had a great time. In the second year, some were committed, who chose to spend it with their special others, while we were left waiting for the day to end, as soon as possible.

Nayan Tarse.....Nayan Tarse

Dono Se Bahe Dhaar......Nayan Tarse

This year, things are no different. Some things are, like now all my friends are committed while I sit here and write this post. But its not like I'm commiserating. We are going to have a post-valentine party tomorrow, and its going to be a blast. Lots of things are planned, it being a no-holds-barred party, confession time, and it should be fun. I am the gracious hostess, and I guess this is the best thing I have been looking forward to for quite some time.

Bisar Gaye .. Bisar Gaye

Bisar Gaye .. Bisar Gaye

Sunahre Yeh Din, Kaali Raat Mein Gaye Dhal

Raama Raama Raama Raama Re ….

Maybe not. It depends how it really turns out to be.

Let Go

You have a problem with me?? Then why don't you come forward and say it? Why all this talk behind my back and then blaming me for it? Why do I do all good and still come out to be the bad one? I guess its because its me. No matter what I do, or how I do it, its going to be negative, and there are no second thoughts about it. So, do you have anything against me to say?? Come out with it, then. By the way, I'm tired of being good to everyone. Or hoping that they would be nice to me too. I changed myself a lot back when I had made the decision to not be rude unnecessarily to people, but now I feel I want to go back to the old me. When I would just tell people what I thought of them without second thoughts about the consequences. When I was way too sarcastic, and maybe had fewer friends. Its not like I have a huge group of friends now, or that I am hugely popular. Previously, at least I was happy. And I had no regrets then. Unlike now, when I just hate myself for being the way I am.

P.S. To Whom It May Concern: This is not directed towards any particular person or event, so please don't come to me with you grievances, I won't bother.

Scribbles....

Stop, take a look around,
Then see what you've found,
Is of actually no use to you.

Turn, someone's calling back,
To put you back on track,
But you are too busy not to hear.

Wait, now you are losing,
But you can't do anything,
'Coz you don't know what to do.

But then, isn't this life,
Where you constantly strive,
And you lose, but there are times when you are a winner.

P.S. just the boring hydraulics class......

My Dance

Its a beautiful day,
I've got things to say,
They buy, They dress
ME?? No stress.

Music is in the air,
It can reach me here,
They sing, They dance
ME?? No chance.

So much to discuss,
So much they fuss,
They hope, They anticipate
ME?? No wait.

The roads are long,
Its another new song,
They meet, They talk
ME?? No walk.

The corridors stretch straight,
There are tales of love and hate,
They fight, They fall
ME?? No call.

I don't stress
But its not like
I don't have a chance.

'Coz I'll wait,
And walk alone,
Till I'm called for my dance.