There is a limit to how long can one sit and do nothing. I haven't been this jobless since...even I don't remember. Its not like I'm some raging workaholic who can't stand the breaks in between, I like my breaks, but not when they stretch to almost a year.
I will complete one year of employment next month, and I have nothing to show for it. Whatever I had learnt in my training last year, I have forgotten all of it. There seems to be no light at the end of this tunnel. I don't think I will get any work in the next few months as well. It looked very pretty in the beginning: nice office, our own laptops, no restricted internet access, flexible work timings, breakouts with TV and newspapers etc. Now, its all crap. I am so bored that one day I would like to break a window to make my life more interesting. Internet gets boring after a while, I don't like TV(esp the channels here), and you take the office for granted when you come here everyday.
The plan is to prepare for MBA this year, but lethargy is a bad disease. After six(five?) hours of doing NOTHING, the zeal to study is also gone. The bigger bombshell is that after more than 2 years of IT experience, if you choose to do MBA, do not expect to be welcomed by finance or marketing companies with open arms. You will end up being stuck in IT, for the rest of your life. This comes after I had decided that I HATE IT and thought that MBA was my escape route.
I want some work to do. Some work that I enjoy. This place is turning me into a vegetable, and that is definitely not enjoyable. I'm having the worst first job experience that anyone could ever have!!
P.S. Now that I've calmed down, I think there are people who might have a worse first job experience. But this place isn't great either. I should try to get out of here, but a (rational) part of my brain tells me that this is the best time to study for MBA (which is not happening - I am absolutely useless!!!). I think I need a break. Can't wait for 21st - Delhi, here I come!
P.P.S. Was checking out my archives...I used to do a number of reviews back then, and considering the fact that I watch a movie every weekend, I think I will start doing reviews again. At least that will give me something to do!!
I will complete one year of employment next month, and I have nothing to show for it. Whatever I had learnt in my training last year, I have forgotten all of it. There seems to be no light at the end of this tunnel. I don't think I will get any work in the next few months as well. It looked very pretty in the beginning: nice office, our own laptops, no restricted internet access, flexible work timings, breakouts with TV and newspapers etc. Now, its all crap. I am so bored that one day I would like to break a window to make my life more interesting. Internet gets boring after a while, I don't like TV(esp the channels here), and you take the office for granted when you come here everyday.
The plan is to prepare for MBA this year, but lethargy is a bad disease. After six(five?) hours of doing NOTHING, the zeal to study is also gone. The bigger bombshell is that after more than 2 years of IT experience, if you choose to do MBA, do not expect to be welcomed by finance or marketing companies with open arms. You will end up being stuck in IT, for the rest of your life. This comes after I had decided that I HATE IT and thought that MBA was my escape route.
I want some work to do. Some work that I enjoy. This place is turning me into a vegetable, and that is definitely not enjoyable. I'm having the worst first job experience that anyone could ever have!!
P.S. Now that I've calmed down, I think there are people who might have a worse first job experience. But this place isn't great either. I should try to get out of here, but a (rational) part of my brain tells me that this is the best time to study for MBA (which is not happening - I am absolutely useless!!!). I think I need a break. Can't wait for 21st - Delhi, here I come!
P.P.S. Was checking out my archives...I used to do a number of reviews back then, and considering the fact that I watch a movie every weekend, I think I will start doing reviews again. At least that will give me something to do!!
what happened to reading books... Keep on prancing around ur boss, pester him/her for work... or yeah... watch movies and recommend a few to me... :)
ReplyDeleteps: loved to read ur writing after so long...
so sweet of u to say that!! must write more.. :)
ReplyDeletei used to read ebooks in office yaar..but now i feel sooo sleepy all the time...and im not the only one who is jobless..its some sort of a slump period...my brain tells me to utilise this time to study..but its definitely not easy..hey did u see pyaar ka punchnama..nice movie..
I remember there was a time when I used to do the same thing. You could possibly treat my name synonymous to procrastination, but I think then I made choice.
ReplyDeleteChoice to change the things around me and looking back now I can connect all the dots. I think I am gonna say only one thing here for you to think of.
"You've got to find what you love and don't settle until you have done so"
-Anonymous
@anonymous: that is such an inspiring thought! i must say that constant joblessness makes u rusty and useless..but im trying to pick up and try to make the most of all the free time i have..and by this time next year i will know if it worked..do stay tuned till then! and thanks for such a heartfelt comment :):)
ReplyDeleteIf you are planning to prepare for MBA, then I think by Jan/Feb you will get to know how 2012 will be for you. Reading this comment, you should realize that the clock on the wall behind you is ticking.
ReplyDeleteI think I will keep on reminding you about it.
- Anonymous
PS: My last post was little abstract. To motivate you and to be little specific, I am doing my MBA and was in the same boat a year ago!
@anon: okay..now im a bit curious..do i know u?? (and even if i dont..would like to know who u r ):)
ReplyDeleteon another note..yes i am preparing..and hearing your story helps a lot..motivation is a big factor and i need that extra push (lazy as i am)...so i will thank you in advance for constantly reminding me of the time passing away so fast..:):)
Uff. Somethings never change I guess. I have been procrastinating to type on this comment window to reply you back but look at me! it took me more than 4-5 days to reply back.
ReplyDeletehehe.
I think having came out of it, I am back into my safe comfort zone but I think I can afford to do that now and not you ;-) So before you read anything further, grab some questions from the your Arun Sharma- DI and start crunching some numbers.
PS: No your don't know me. We never met. Who am I then ? Well, will tell you some day.
PPS: Checking the comment page is inconvenient. anonym1487@gmail.com
Uff. Somethings never change I guess. I have been procrastinating to type on this comment window to reply you back but look at me! it took me more than 4-5 days to reply back.
ReplyDeletehehe.
I think having came out of it, I am back into my safe comfort zone but I think I can afford to do that now and not you ;-) So before you read anything further, grab some questions from the your Arun Sharma- DI and start crunching some numbers.
PS: No your don't know me. We never met. Who am I then ? Well, will tell you some day.
PPS: Checking the comment page is inconvenient. anonym1487@gmail.com